17 and I love to explore everything. Being young always tho Im getting older, that's so me. I love Beyonce and i'm crazy about her. Quotes, girls, singing - my obsessions. Tho i'm rebellious, i still have my own goals. I dream alot. &in reality, i never give up to catch my dreams. This is the blog which i'm going to jot down my feelings and thoughts.

Love, me.



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Lol this picture. I still remember when the YOG people came to my school
and i was super crazy about this girl . Finally we took picture together ((:

&yeah, today i feel not so weak but still no appetite to eat/drink.
not even abit. cos i know i will vomit/shit everything out .
ahhh. my stomach still hurts and my head as well.
my nose pon sumpah irritating..

Anyways, i slept so much yesterday, i don't wish to sleep alot today.
Planned to watch tv then prepare something for budak kecik.
Afterwhich, i want to study. Lol. sakit sakit pon study eh? hahah.

Anyway i was given 2 days mc. So to prevent so much loss of lessons,
i study at home. Lemah tu lemah la badan. Tapi apa nak buat?

Oh yeah, i feel so contented cos when i heard my pay was in,
I called my mom to give my grandmom some money.
&the feelings are undescribable.

I wanted to meet her so much but im so weak to go out ):
I hope she's doing fine nenek..
I love you.

School was splendid as usual especially during p.e lesson.
&the games played within my classmates with loves.
I was happy throughout school today.
I wish it could stay forever. The happiness.

Went back from school and had a short nap.
Surprisingly i did not eat anything after school. Even for lunch!
I guess i led a healthy lifestyle today.
Cos instead of food, i ate fruits for lunch.
Instead of the usual-blackcurrent-drink, i had mineral water.
And the whole day i had mineral water.
&last but not least, instead of dinner before nap, i had nap before dinner.

&I disappointed with myself. Cos i literally did not study today.
I tried to and planned to. I tried so hard to stay focus. But i couldnt.
Couldn't at all..

What a fragile heart i have.
Well i am trying to occupy my time with O.
But i doubt you can occupy 24hours. Definitely, there's a point of time,
you'll be alone. Especially, before sleep. &hell yeah, there's when i will start to
think about you. I try so hard to not cry . To not be sad. I try so hard, trust me.
I thought that I am strong. Strong not to show my sorrow with me friends, at school.
As stated, i thought.

I wish i could be strong in my lonely time, as well.
I know i don't wanna depend my life on others.
I know i wanna be independent. Yes i want to be independent.
Sigh, you know what, firstly i thought i could express my feelings here.
But i doubt so.

Its just too complicated.
Cheer up sri, god will always be there.
Come on, smile.

Eh hi! First of all, happy new year, 2011 (:
Well i hope it 2011 will be a better year for me.
New year je , aku kene pergi hospital sebab food poisoning.
Got injection and asyik nantuk jeee :(

I will remember what you said to me,
till i die and i'll never take a step back again.
Forever.

Well you asked for it, you get it.
I just had enough.

Fuck you.

I feel fucked up. Even at work i did stupid mistakes.
Well that shows how much useless i am.
I rather be dead, right?