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17 and I love to explore everything. Being young always tho Im getting older, that's so me. I love Beyonce and i'm crazy about her. Quotes, girls, singing - my obsessions. Tho i'm rebellious, i still have my own goals. I dream alot. &in reality, i never give up to catch my dreams. This is the blog which i'm going to jot down my feelings and thoughts. Love, me.   Music Playlist at MixPod.com |
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Hatred in life .
Friday, August 14, 2009 @ 7:49 AM
 " The same game going around and around But I still end up with nothing but hurting.... " I felt ashame . I felt embarrass . I seriously do . A promise to myself , i promised that no matter how heavy is the situation , i will never cry infront of my class , friends . I always wanted to be strong . I have said that many times . I was really depressed once and i want to end there . I don't want that to carry on . It really hurts me inside because i know myself , i should not be in that situation . NEVER . But i simply can't control . Besides , it is not only happen to me , myself , but also it does affect to those people , around me . I hate it ! I hate to be mocked . Everytime this happen , i will feel insecure and my self- esteem will get lowered . Hence, negative things will gather in my head . However , upon being extremely blue, i forced myself to laugh at my classmate's hilariousity . I forced myself to be enthusiastic during the training . Oh god , i don't know how to express my feelings anymore . The emptiness inside my heart is biting my soul bit by bit . I just need a friend to be there for me when i need them . i hate to carry the burden all by myself . Yes it's the most hatred i hate in my life .
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