17 and I love to explore everything. Being young always tho Im getting older, that's so me. I love Beyonce and i'm crazy about her. Quotes, girls, singing - my obsessions. Tho i'm rebellious, i still have my own goals. I dream alot. &in reality, i never give up to catch my dreams. This is the blog which i'm going to jot down my feelings and thoughts.

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Things are getting heavier now , more tougher to manage my time.
Holidays are getting to the end . Lots for me to catch up in study wise , art .
I need to go out , for my first hand observation , art . Besides, I really have to work out
too . But I don't think I have time for that too . My mistakes too , I should have done those
from earlier instead, i cropped everything towards the end of my holiday . CCA is also pushing myself beyond my limit . In addition , my logistic dearest partner, syaiful , isn't there for me . He's at Egypt currently . And he will be back for about 2 wks! :'(
So i have to make all proporsal, all by myself. How suck can that be . Not only about the camp proporsal, the mascot competition . How can I cope on this when i not even went to my art SCDF Mascot Competition ? I just endure and endure. Firstly , I regret on taking art . I should have cried more during the results for streaming last year, so that brother could help me to appeal A.Maths . Art is very time consuming . For those Sec 3 2010 who are taking art , good luck!
I know I have been slacking damn lots . I treated my holiday like as though I'm turning 15 next year . -.-

Due to N level , I am sure it's going to affect my relationship with shello . It has been affecting.
Can't you see? I used to post every entries about her . By having our new photos on every entries , was a must. We used to meet every 2 days . And otp at every nights from midnight till dawn. Now, once a week and a one or two hour talks . What about next year? Well I am sure something can always occupy me with studies , art , homeworks , projects , all about school . But what if , too busy for school till it affects our relationship ? You know , less quality time will always end up with conflicts . Anyway , I hope i can get use to now situation so that i can get more prepared for next year , being apart with baby for weeks perhaps. Baby always said , must have alot of patient and understanding and trust . I know i must not be too clingy but at the same time , I can't bare to see us getting busy and busy and let us be apart , for long time .
I know you will try. I trust you sayang.
God willing .

Right now it is nearly 4am , i just burst into tears . Tears of vexation .
I am clueless of who to turn to , but blog .
I am having a very bad body ache and my neck stiff like motherpoker. I swear it hurts alot .
Neckstiff = bad headache .
And i still have 123272834678694645 things to do and get over with .
I had a sleepless night today . I've been lacking of sleep .
But still I can't sleep today .
I have many things on my mind , especially cca.
cca has been caught up many things last minute .


I feel so weak .
Syaiful , please come back from egypt soon ..

:'(