17 and I love to explore everything. Being young always tho Im getting older, that's so me. I love Beyonce and i'm crazy about her. Quotes, girls, singing - my obsessions. Tho i'm rebellious, i still have my own goals. I dream alot. &in reality, i never give up to catch my dreams. This is the blog which i'm going to jot down my feelings and thoughts.

Love, me.



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I have been trying so hard to please you .
Yet I am label with those words . I don't
espect any repay . I don't . I only want happiness
care and concern consistantly . I don't ask much .
You asked me to change . I have been trying .
And i keep trying . But yourself ? Look at yourself ,
in the mirror , ask yourself . Have you changed too ?
Yet you had a cheek to take an easy way to escape
from the problem we are facing . Why ? You weren't
like this before. You promised to me you will not raise
your voice to me . Yet a small matter , you yelled .
I can't accept those labels you labelled me earlier on .
It was too hurtful . Do you know that it really hurt me ?
It even affect my pride . Do you even see yourself ?
I never label you cos i respect you . I just simply point out
if there's any mistakes made by you . But you , when you pointed out,
I even admit my mistakes and said sorry . But those labels made me feel
as though I have been too much for you . Seolah-olah engkau mengungkit kisah lama .. hatiku retak seperti kaca dihempas .

Susah senang , kita bersama .

Bullshit .
Now, who is the weak one ?
Me or you ? If i am a weak girl , labelled by you ,
I would escape and leave you .
I don't . I still make the effort to please you .
Can't you see I am trying ? I was hoping for some good thing back .
Happiness . But i was on a cloud 9 that my hopes were really high .

Masa susah kite berpisah ; bercantum pula tatkala masa senang .

Anyway . I'm sorry to say this
I didn't mean to be petty or .. troublesome . I am just letting out my feelings .
Letting out feelings .. i hope it doesn't mean to you that i am weak.
I am just too scared of losing you . I detest to see our love slowly fade .
I have noticed this changes from the start of the day we were officially , together .
I am just trying to work out the solution for every obstacles.
I believe that every problem will make us learn something thus the fire will keep on burning .
Hence you , im needing the most . Yes you. Do you realise?
I wonder how can you have the guts to leave me alone , no matter
how long you want to leave me , you have the guts to
let me be alone settling all this problems .

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menghadapi segala rintangan yang melanda ..."