17 and I love to explore everything. Being young always tho Im getting older, that's so me. I love Beyonce and i'm crazy about her. Quotes, girls, singing - my obsessions. Tho i'm rebellious, i still have my own goals. I dream alot. &in reality, i never give up to catch my dreams. This is the blog which i'm going to jot down my feelings and thoughts.

Love, me.



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Before i go to sleep .. let me recap what had happened today .
What i know .. i was really angry with someone due to something .
My laughters and smiles were all fake . I forced myself as i don't wish anyone to
know it . I rather book everything in a heart. The reason is simply , I know nothing gain
and i know the burning of the fire will get bigger indeed.
But i was so devastated . I texted Joey even though i was just a few
distance away from her and hugged her.
I'm glad we're close now . If not , my past would occur which i hope for this year,
I don't want that to happen . Until up to this second , I still feel sad about it .
In fact it already begun last year . I just kept quiet .
I know it's stupid la . But it's better to be in this way and slowly forget
rather than fighting which takes place . Luckily i could cntrol my anger .
Not only Joey tho , i am still grateful that i have awesome friends around me .
Dania , Eleanor , Mr Gazali (which literally made my day ) .

Let's stick on this topic . I was supposed to post about it earlier on as i couldn't control the anger
anymore. But .. i dilly dally tossing around my house. Played guitar fuck hard . And sang
my heart out . I felt much better later . Soon , i ate . My mom bought me again , 2 takayaki balls.
Splendid isn't it ? I played guitar again . That time , i played "Rahsia Cinta " as I miss baby so much . I am meeting her this Sunday . Peace . Rolled around my mom's bed and slept till 7 plus and proceed to art and physics.
I am sleeping soon , i promise.
Die hard i won't sleep at 1pm , i hope .


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It , I fucking don't care about your condition now cos i know it's so fake .
Fucking fucking fake .
I have researched about it .
Sooner or later i know you will be like your past , double than the past .
Stop bratting or look down on me . It is so depressing and disheartening .
At your hard time before,
i don't brat nor exaggerating . Look at yourself in a mirror .
I HOPE YOU WILL . reflect . The mirror perhaps is not enough for you kan ?
Cos you are all way up high from the fact . Too over the moon therefore you forgotten
about other people feelings .
I pity you lah it . really .
May god 'bless' you baby .

I finally contacted back with filiana .
I feel blessed. (Y)

& i love shello very much .
till then ,
may peace be upon you .

ps: I believe i am a strong girl if i ain't strong , i would throw everything up .
Just like what i did in those days .