17 and I love to explore everything. Being young always tho Im getting older, that's so me. I love Beyonce and i'm crazy about her. Quotes, girls, singing - my obsessions. Tho i'm rebellious, i still have my own goals. I dream alot. &in reality, i never give up to catch my dreams. This is the blog which i'm going to jot down my feelings and thoughts.

Love, me.



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Currently I'm just feeling .... I don't know . All mixed up .
I tried and still trying to put aside all the bad feelings as i know ,
N level is no matter what , is my first priority .

I have put myself in a very big mess . Just because of a friend ,
I have lost 2 friends of mine , i dont have to mention name .
It's just too .. unexpected . I have lost a number of loveliess that used to
be the one who always be there for me , never failed to make me laugh.
How can i feel Okay ? I had a hard feeling the whole today . My mind
just into how to solve it , which i know there's no use , anymore .
I just hate the feelings . It stopped me from being happy and crazy everytime
and the worriness is undescribable .

I just need love and tender so that my days will be brought up happily
and thus i have the mood to do and end task given , happily without any ..
hard feelings . The wonderful feeling , you know? I know i must not forget
that i still have god and self-loves . I tried to be posiitive . Sigh .

I love school . I wish school will just keep rolling in my life without any pause .
But it will be better without studying Chey , ahah! But i just love my classmates
so much . They always 24/7 be there for me without any fail . I broke down early in
the morning and it's nice that i can hug several of my classmates . They're just , the best .
Wani , ardilla , joey , atiqah and alots more and also friends from other classes.
I just feel good around but when i reached home , i'm back to basis. I just hate it ,
i hate it so much . I still yet to study my social studies . But i still tossing around my bed .
Sigh sigh sigh .

"Life has no trial runs, no actions or practices. It's there and then, and everything just happens. "

I believe i have grabbed the lessons .
It just takes courage to move on .
another game that just keep going around and i
still end up with nothing but hurting .
I believe a normal human will only plan their life what they are going to be
and what they want to be . But god is the approver and will purposely test your
patience . & that's too i believe , god will never be a cruel that to see his own
creation , be melancholy all the times . I just want to be a strong girl .
As time goes , i shall accept the fact and happily move on .

But ,

What's the reason that has been hiding behind all this?
What ?











I have tuition soon , i better get going .
May peace be upon you .