17 and I love to explore everything. Being young always tho Im getting older, that's so me. I love Beyonce and i'm crazy about her. Quotes, girls, singing - my obsessions. Tho i'm rebellious, i still have my own goals. I dream alot. &in reality, i never give up to catch my dreams. This is the blog which i'm going to jot down my feelings and thoughts.

Love, me.



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I had my Saturday spent with loves . I was being fickled about it la cos i had a fight
with shello the night before that made my entire mood turn off for saturday . But however
after i had thought numerous times, i still went for the sake of firstly , i miss syiqin like veryyyyyy . She's the ... one in the grayscale photo . The only grayscale . And i just wanted to be there for trisya cos she was having problems recently . I just , pity her . i hope she can stay strong as she knows i'll always be there for her .

We met at 10.30 am . Tak ke pagi tu name ? Aku da macam zombie dalam train . tsssk .
they cabbed all the way from amk to eunos just to fetch me . hows sweet .
Drizzling quite badly but it just last for not till an hour . Thanks god . The place wasnt that packed and im thankful again for that . We camwhored and laughed and IN LINED AND CYCLED. Alot more photos all here. (:

We ate somewhere over almost at the one end of the east coast park and we walked off around 8 pm . I kept grumbling and grumbling as i was really tired and my backbones were being a killer on that day but halfway as i was walking back, i donno why i felt so calm . I think the wind breeze. & the sentimental songs i listened with trisya . We walked to the underpass and to the bus stop . Something happened to syiqin and as a result, I reached eunos inter around 9 plus already . Therefore i cabbed home from eunos and it costs almost 10 bucks . Sad sei . but its okay .

We planned something again and its on 25th :D
Karaoke okay ?
Sri nak nyanyi lagu dangdut . hehe!


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Sunday i had to wake up early as well and i had to travel to punggol with my ....
Brother and father and mother . Father was being a sarcastic to me that morning .
Whats more my brother . I swear i did not feel like going but for my mom's sake , i still went .
Punggol lei . so fucking far . sommore my father's side which i detest alot . Not detest la . But i hate their attitudes . So biars. and In malay we call , pilih kasih , paham ? Aku benci sia .
I made reasons so that i could escape from the packed house to my grandmom's room .
And guess what , i managed to snore like a pig , i sleepppppt! Awesome kan .
We cabbed home in the evening and talked to trisya till night over at msn (:


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Today is monday . First day of school i swear it sucks . Cos my mind has been occupying about saturday . Saturday saturday . I'm still being fickle about it . Cos my heart tells me that yes ,
I still love you tremendously .

I was really moody the whole day . My neck+backbones still doesnt get any better and i almost tear up whenever i see my frens get scolded by me unintentionally whenever i saw my friends being happy , i felt leftout . Cos i was really in a mudane situation . I tried to join . But it doesnt get any better . I still feel the stone in my heart which tough to let go . I even shouted loudly to my friend. With the unusual me , i shouted a vulgar word to him . Perhaps the whole school could hear me . Sigh . How nice if there's someone to hug on that point of time which i really needed it .
Since kimo having school , i texted trisya that i really need a hang out . I wasn't feeling good.
But sigh . nevermind . She wasn't free. & anyways , I don't feel good to enclose this matter to my classmates . I felt insecure . I don't know .
I thought i could occupy my night tonight with studying history and chemistry from missing her .
I already bought highlighter and liquid like finally but i still resting my but on my bed playing laptop . I tried to sang loudly and hoping i could at least ease my mind . But it sucks that i can't .
I can't .

Tomorrow i'm meeting trisya and phyl .
I hope at least it makes my day .
Stay strong suwee baby .


& Happy 5th monthsary to my dearest friend , wani and bf (: